TOUCH ME...I'M SICK............!

Touch me....I'm sick,
coz I was the cure...for every itch..

deprived and depraved,

Love like a flower,on my grave..

I’m so detached..so corrupted..

Life is on a halt with emotions busted..

The sun too give up..

I’m stranded in the dark..

There was nothing in sight,but memories apart..

I used to be wasted,Always tried to take it

Take it down into my vein..

Thats not something which I ever enjoyed,

That is just my bloody hated intolerable pain....!

you left me in the mid,

when you know,I love you still...

but my strength got weaker n weaker,

coz my body has lost its will..

there is no fear...but only sorrows...

as usual,happiness is sumthing..

which I always need to borrow...

A shocking selfishness surrounds everywhere..

as brainwashed people show that they do not care..

I’m still dining on the ashes of yesterday

forever shrouded in darkness

rip this heart from my chest

reeling now in eternal sadness..

torment, pain,sufferings with fucked up life,

is all that remain...

its a big ‘NO’ to blood forever n ever..

coz alcohol is running in my veins.....!

Condemned to self-destruct,

collapsing--suffocating inner walls.

Awaiting miserably to erupt,

in crystal clear--black waterfalls.

An exotic erotic fantasy

heeding toward my being

dreaming into reality

without the sense of seeing..

Its time to love me,embrace me

Coz I’m in your foreign land...

upon lurking shadows grace

walking with death in hand ........!!!

MATHEMATICALLY IN LOVE

A three is all that's good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight..
Beneath a vicious square root sign ?
I wish instead I were a Nine..
For nine could thwart this evil track,
With just some quick arithmetic..
I know I'll never see the sun,
As 1.7321..
Such is my reality,
A sad irrationality..
When,hark,just what is this I see ?
Another square root of a three..
Has quietly come waltzing by,
Together now we multiply..
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer..
We break free from our mortal bonds,
And with a wave of magic wands..
Our square root signs become unglued,
And love for me has been renewed..

CATASTROPHICALLY RETARDED

I cannot take this anymore..
when love is no more a cure..!
kill those feelings which are pure..
won't get love..
thats for sure......!
fact is that No one cares..
they damn care if I drown..
in the pool of tears....!
To find myself again..
in the world of illusion..
Left with the hated fantasies..
thats the only conclusion...!
Creativity in me is at the last stage..
like a handicapped mammal dying in a burning cage....!
My Metamorphosis..
Led to solace..
Ask me whoz stripped to the soul..
Struggling to find a hidden place..!
The pain of mine is so high..
wish to sit alone and cry....!

My struggle for sanity....!

I am struggling; I climb and then I fall.Lofty to lowly, my thoughts encompass all.On borderline Schizophrenia, I tread,I've multiple perceptions within ONE head!My highest self sees my lower thoughts with disdain.There are opposing viewpoints within ONE brain!Suppressing those intruders bringing ill-ease;Those negative thoughts that are spreading disease.Trying to fight off thoughts that are plaguing my brain;Ego-based invaders that make me insane.I'm organizing my 'many-a-viewing'and sorting through heads of 'truth-misconstruing'.It's a 'refurbished mind' that I'm trying to invent.'A more expansive caring' is my intent.Attempting to 'brainwash' my 'brain-dirtied' mind;Cleansing 'conditioning' learned from humankind.Living my 'highest of heads' seems the best wayto approach the dawn of each brand new day.Keep in mind that I'm 'normal' just like you.We all have psychiatric work to do!